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Man, there’s just something that I just can’t let go of and I don’t know why. And yup, it deals with a matter of the heart. I’ve been praying about it constantly to God and am asking for him to dig up the root so we can cast it away…but it still torments me.
I’m understanding that I am controlling this issue and it’s me that has to keep prying my hands off it. My knuckles are white from my firm grasp on it…and I keep examining myself to see what it is that makes me think my life is better by holding on to it.
Have you ever had something you just can’t seem to let go of? It’s painful, emotionally painful.
I also think that the reason why I am holding on to it is because I am pouting that I didn’t get my way. It’s not fun when you don’t get your way in life. I wish I was one of those people who could just accept that and move on quickly…but I’m not quite there yet.
I am trying to learn how to accept my circumstances and realize they are the best for me. But, I’m struggling with that I have to admit.
So, I’m throwing myself in God’s arms, as mentioned in the last post, and I’m trying to deal with my situation and not shoving it down. I’m letting it hurt with the hopes that one day I will have a breakthrough and it will be gone.
I have to hold onto God’s words and trust Him in all things. He cares for me and understands where I’m at. And when I run to him, the pain does numb…
Matthew 11:28-30 (New International Version)
28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
I get it…but it still hurts. Do hearts ever mend I wonder?
In his good care,
Cindy
