If You're Lonely Now, You'll Be Lonely In Your Marriage
I’m thinking about writing a Christian book about what I’ve been growing through lately — God has been bringing me to my knees about my deep worldly desire for a mate. It’s been painful beyond measure, but an eye-opening process.
I’ve always been an achiever and pretty much have reached all my goals with few surprises along the way. But, this finding a husband thing, is the one thing I haven’t been able to achieve. It keeps eluding me no matter how much I try. And that drives me nuts. I just don’t get it.
But, I have peace for I know God gets it. In addition to wanting the best for me – I also think he wants me learn through not getting everything that I want. I recently was involved in a relationship in which I came in second – he chose another girl. Boy, that one still smarts. I don’t like second place…but, this has been a very good lesson.
As a result, one time last week God woke me up in the middle of the night and he did some talking to me. He was telling me that I’ve been going about things all wrong and He showed me that if I let Him He will provide me with the life that He intended. I just need to take my hand out of the cookie jar so to speak and start to let him direct my path.
It’s not been easy AT ALL. But, I am starting to understand what He’s up to. He wants me to stop my pursuit of non-Godly men and let Him bring someone to me in His time. I am growing through this and hourly must call upon Him when pangs of sadness or lonliness creep in, but it’s worth it. To be able to have the man of dreams, than the man of right now – I am not going to settle. It’s not worth it.
Truthfully, I hate this single living stuff…but I’d rather obey Him for I know, that I know, that I know that His way is best.
So with that, I’m noodling around in my head this idea for a book which will go more in-depth about my surrender to His will in finding a mate and stop my ways of forcing a desire.
Is there anything easy in life? What do you think about a book on this subject?
Take care,
Cinderella without a Godly Fella
